点点

看了朋友们对我的留言，我知道大家都好关心我。其实我所谓的与黑夜为舞，并不是接受黑暗面，憎恨、嫉妒、害怕、悲哀，并不是这样的。我从来没有消极到把自己放弃的程度，即使被真正阴影的黑暗包围，我也不会消失，因为我是所有黑暗中的一个亮点，闪烁着自己的亮点，尽管我这亮点只有点点那么大。那样的亮点之所以寻找黑暗只是因为在白天的光亮之中困惑了，一下子迷失了方向，但是黑夜让我看清自己，让我闪耀自己，让我找到自己，那真实的存在感，那样一个精彩的我。现在我融入平静的黑色的夜里，那也只是出去走走、散散步、和朋友一起逛街、一起运动，忘记那些该死的不愉快和矛盾的事情。而且从3月份开始，我不得不把精力集中在学习上，因为我报名参加了英语的辅导班，从那时候起，我的周一、三晚和周六、日就都让给学习英语了，所以在我还有自己的一点点的时间的时候，给些我自己、给些我周围的朋友，让一起存在的真实感不要消失。
当然，我一定会再次回来的，当我疲惫不堪、一个人孤独的在家里的时候，我知道这里还有更多的光点甚至是光亮在等待我，有着这样一份被期待的心情，有着支持着你的强大力量，我就一定会回来的。我要燃烧我的生命之光，把自己真正的价值体现出来。

平静

记得高中的时候，一遇到心里不舒服的时候，我就会走出家门，在黑夜里散步，寻找一个能让自己心情平静下来的地方，让自己在那里享受着那一份宁静。黑色的夜空广阔空旷，将一切的阴霾包围在神秘的黑色里，包容了你视野里的一切，也把那一个渺小的我完全浸没在他的怀抱里。那时候，夜里无人问津的小区花园成了我宁静的摇篮。在那里，心被无限放大，所有心里的不舒服被净化，消除了一切晦涩、烦躁、郁闷。就好象自己变成了一滴死水，掉进了一个更大更平静的水面上。今天，交杂在一起的复杂心情，像缠绕的结，如今的我又如何回复到那年黑夜，浸没在他的怀抱里时那一颗平静又纯净的心呢？
对着屏幕，满是思绪，躁烦的心，更是不懂长大的自己是不是变了很多。成长的经历总会扼杀许多年少时的懵懂，现在的我，已经在那时候失去太多的机会，一旦有些事情没有经历过，就再也不会有这个机会了。站起身，抛弃几秒钟那习惯了N年之久的电脑，走到那窄小的浴室，对着镜子开始发呆。。。。忽然发现，发现那镜子里的自己，发现了他这么的真实，那嘴角上的伤，发呆的时候都差点忘记原来那张脸上还有一个别人留下过的深深的印记，尽管是破开的很小的一个口子，但血液在那凝结成了一个点，这个点证明了我曾经在那个校园里打球，把汗洒在球场上时的快感。是的，存在就这样被记述了，以一个另人意想不到的方式。原来，这就是我拥有的，原来，抛开心里的束缚也可以活的这样精彩的。
但是真实的自己并不是这样就可以平静下来了，因为现在的自己没有办法逃避了。就在刚才，我又烧坏了一个水壶，就在我写着想让自己平静下的这篇文章时，父亲下班回来了，看见了整个厨房在冒着烟，喊着我告诉我水壶烧坏了，水烧干了，我又看到了他失望的脸。是的，那就是我现在逃避不了的责任，甚至是如果他晚点回来，我可能已经成为一盒粉尘，可能已经不在了，而我做的最错的却是给别人带来了灾难，烧光了房子又会使我父亲伤心，我总是会背负着不经意的错误。然而一个小的创口也可以致人于死命。
而现在的我更难平静下来了，就在我寻找着那一份平静的时候。
我现在已经懂得学会承受责任，所以我唯一能逃避的是造成更大的麻烦。而我却又很累，想保持好自己所有方面的平衡也是不容易的，也许我该告诉自己，换点事情去做比较合适，所以我会选择去游戏，去看电影，出去逛街，唱歌，去泡吧，去运动，然后等这些也忙不过来的时候我应该去工作去学习，去了解更多。然而我现在最该做的是逃避，因为我感到太累了，就让我在这段时间逃避一下，或者把精神能集中在考试上面，也许还会看下警校的招考情况，在我还有点希望之前。
对不起我亲爱的朋友们，我又要和黑夜做段时间的好朋友了...

MY ANSWER

Have u noticed anything in your life was changing bit by bit?For instance,your customs your actions even your answers with the same questions.Yes?NO?Of course as we all know lives is changing bit by bit when we are unconscious.However,this changes some are good and others are not.
Today noon my father asked me a question:HAVE YOU TAKE ENOUGH MONEY INTO YOUR POCKET?I think all people will know his meaning is want to give me enough money for pass my free day.But i said:Yes,i have.In fact,there is RMB85 into my pocket,it's really not enough to a boy aged 23 and without work in this month.If before 1year ago,i would say:NO!Even though there were much money into my pocket,becasue then he would give me more.But after 1year the answer has changed.I don't want my father to give me money that he got earned of hard working.I am a big boy graduated by SHANGHAI PYSICAL EDUCATION UNIVERSITY.And i really have enough abilities to live in the city.So when i realised the question and the change,i felt this change of mine is very strong.Maybe i will be never change this answer again as the change looks like yesterday's.
How about your feeling?Tell me...

FRIENDSHIP

There's a girl who is beautiful and kind and cute,maybe she is a lady of peer maybe she is a princess,of cuz nobody knows it.

This is a boy who is blur and lazy and sleepy,he likes eating and playing games.

However,they become good friends .And set up very deep friendship.

One day the girl wants to give the boy a pretty nice birthday present.But what is unexpected is the hand present of a video has gone from pc.however,the present is girl paying for lots of days to produced,even everynight won't sleep till 3-4am.That day the girl shed tears.So the girl's action touches the boy's heart.And the boy has found a poem for her.

A Tear Fell
by Marge Tindal
I shed a tear today
Silently, I felt it fall
You caught it
shared it
held it
felt it
then
suddenly
it wasn't
so big
after all

2008 NBA ALL-STAR GAME

As we all know,NBA all-star game is the most important and foculise competition of the world.It started on the sunday of last week,and it shown on the TV over the world.Though i seldom to watch TV,but i still watched it all the same.And i think it is the best game in whole world.
This time LeBron James becomes an MVP of the game.His performance was greatest and excited,u can understand by below news:Like he has done all season, James showed the world why he is the league’s best all-around player, finishing with 27 points (12-for-22 shooting), handing out nine assists, grabbing eight rebounds, blocking two shots and making two steals.WOW~do u really think he is proper best player in this game,haha.Besides James,Ray Allen is another player performanced best.Coz his long distance 3-points shocked all audiences pay attention to the game.But Nowitzki's performance is disappointed to me,ohhh,forget it,haha.
Do u like this game?maybe yes maybe not,but hope everyone can enjoy ur hobbies' joy.

回归零

It's close to new semester of 城中路primary school,but i won't be back to school to teach my cute students soon. Maybe all ppl wan to know y i won't be there ,did i make a mistake? Of cuz i will tell u i have to stay at home for preparing to attend the test of physical education. And i have to wait getting info from my school. So i would be free in these days.,all things get back,i am a pity man again!
When i was in GYM seeing ppl playing badminton,i will think it is the time i have to learn,all ppl are working hard for their learning and hobbies.Y i haven't got any things that i am good at.So i wan to change my life,i won't keep it,i wan be a stronger man colorful man.i wan to change i will change...

grows of mine

There are many things we have to do everyday. But have u looked back for ur past?ur beautiful and almost forgortten past. Now,i will show my almost lost past and look back again. Coz i really have a nice past just i couldn't realise before!~And never forget ur best friends appear in ur life... Let's show it...

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